Firstly, I notice that my Reading Challenge 2012 widget isn't working for me. On my computer, when this page comes up it says I've read 0 books in 2012. This is patently untrue! I have, in fact, read 69 books! I started with a goal of 100 for the year, but I've increased my goal to 120 just to see if I can reach it. So, regardless of what that dratted widget may say - I AM READING! Well, listening to audio books, at least. Reading some.
Sometimes life is very hard. Divorce is very hard. Dealing with lies, betrayal, adjusting to being a single mom, handling finances alone, trying to make ends meet, being the only grown-up in the house, all of that - very hard. Sometimes, I have to be honest, I just sit down and weep for a while. It sucks. But today, in the pit of depression, losing my cool in a big way, I realized that I have lots of friends. I have people I can call. I didn't know who to call to talk about my woes, because frankly, I feel all talked out. Everyone knows my situation is complicated, and I know that there are any number of people who will help if I have specific needs. What I realized today is that I needed to stop spiraling into my own depression and think about someone else. I called a friend who is going through a really hard life thing, and I asked her how she is doing. And you know what? I felt so much better. She talked to me, I talked to her, and there you go - we were both a little better than before.
Now - I need to remember to keep that lesson and act on it again. And again. And again. Just because I'm in tough circumstances doesn't mean I can't still be a loving, caring friend. It's totally win-win.
Maybe tomorrow I'll try getting some housework done and see how that does at improving my mood.