Tuesday, November 05, 2013

Things I Don't Want to Forget

Just a list for now . . . maybe I'll write more after I've slept and maybe I won't.

Troy at Canfield Fair
  • I joined an online dating site on the day that would have been my 20th wedding anniversary (I said 19th but then came back and editted it to make it correct - oops).  I found it to be appropriate, somehow.
  • I dated a few different guys that were OK but not very interesting.  Only one guy got more than one date, and they were both boring.
  • I first met Troy face to face on Good Friday, March 29, 2013.  We'd been messaging and then emailing back and forth for a few days and we'd talked on the phone a few times, too.  We went to dinner and karaoke at Shamrocks Pub and Grub.  He liked my singing (among other things), I liked his wit (among other things).
  • I resigned from the library on May 15, 2013.  It was not a happy occassion.  One of the worst days of my life in some ways, but in other ways it was a ticket to freedom.
  • I'm very glad I no longer work for that library system, for multiple reasons.
  • My son is very, very far away at college now.  I took him out, with my mom, to Kansas City Art Institute and it was hard to leave him there but I know it's a wonderful time of life for him and I'm immensely proud of him for being so brave and talented.
  • I've been learning that when I get really blue I need to talk to other people and care more about them than I do myself.  Works every time to keep me from going crazy.
  • I am learning to care less than before about what people think about me and my decisions.
  • People are not looking at my house even though it's been on the market for 2 months.  Please, please let me sell this house before January!
  • I am so very lucky to have my parents, my wonderful, loving, generous parents who support, encourage and reach out to me when I feel like the whole world is caving in.
  • I am very lucky that Troy found me.  He's a really fun, kind, talented, smart man and it's so much FUN to hang out with him!
  • I'm starting to enjoy living alone. I am the master of my fate.  I am the captain of my soul.
  • I know that God is with me in this world, I don't understand his plans for me and I don't understand the world, but I know this to be true, that He loves me and that I was created to love.
    Si and Mom with loaded car

    Si at entrance sign to KCAI